lonely soul

jux put up sum pics 4 e last post..check it out yea??(it's below..wif the previous post)

yea..yesterdae went trainin
lest came 2 pick joy up..
n josie dragged mi along wif them..
i went along lohx..nt wantin them her feel bad abt abandonin mi..

then went novena sq..
had ljs..matt came soon..
ya lah..i end up 'bright' again..
2 swweet couples wif one poor xtra soul..
which so happens 2 be mi..

then went over 2 united sq..
they sat down n play 'truth or dare' lohx..
i made matty n lest hug each other 4 a dare..
they almost gang up 2 throw mi down the fountain lahx..
sianz..(",)

aft tt i rotted beside them..
they had fun..doin couple stuff..
i jux started countin the stars in the sky..amusin myself..

it seems 2 get pathetic..
i'm alwaes alone..
the 2 of them haf their other half..
n things get realli irritatin while their other half is alwaes 1st..
i'm 2nd..
n i seem 2 be e xtra even although i've knew them 4 far longer than the bfs..

it doesn't realli matter whether i exist anot..
it certainly seems so..

7 odd yrs of frenship..
bt juz a bf of less than 2 mths can replace mi..
how sad n weak can tis frenship be..

it feels soo horrible..
i hate being alone
i'm scared of being alone..
so lost..so helpless..so forgotten..
i nid someone by my side too..

-solitary-

jotted.mQ